I just got off the phone with my mom talking about one of our many 30-60 minute rants about my so-called "Father." The things he does and he does not even notice that he's doing them are just so upsetting to me and I've found ways to just say, "Fuck It." It's amazing how amped up we get over talking about one guy. It definitely is sad to see what he does and know that he can't see that he is doing them, but all you can do is pray for him, right? I have my resentments, but I'm getting to the point where I don't resent them anymore, they just are... things that happened. I can't change the fact that what he does is not representing a father-figure but more like a "man I used to know." I can change the feelings I get and realize that he has changed so I need to move on. I'm almost to the point where I can know the difference. Isn't the Serenity prayer just amazing how it works when you break it down and actually use it to live life on life's terms? God, Grant me the Serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference. I love that prayer. Other than the Lord's Prayer, I don't really know any other ones. I'm not completely super religious or anything, I have my own belief system. Anyway... I have to take Chester to the vet today. He's getting his rabies shot and a check up to see if he's sick. He seems like he's being bothered by something, but I don't know. We'll see.

20 February 2007